Take Two | Clare Henney

I’ve had a love-hate relationship with blogging lately.  Sometimes I love it so much that I post entries daily but sometimes I also wonder why I even bother.

It has come to the point where I’ve realized that I’ve changed as a blogger.  I’ve been blogging more about certain topics to get more readers and I’ve rushed posts for the sake of having something new.  My blog entries have become more about things that I think readers would like rather than what I would really want to say. It made me wonder if that is what I want my blog to be about.  As the Natasha Bedingfield song goes, “You start with little changes till you don’t know who you are…”  That is exactly how I feel when it comes to being a blogger.

Looking back I remember that I started my first blog as a way to express myself.  The statistics didn’t matter, all the followers, the page views, the ads…it was never about that.  When blogging became more popular, I admit that I wondered if I could go down the path of more popular blogs and write about trendier or more controversial things to claim my own share of fame in the blogosphere.

Wondering, however, is as far as that goes:  I know that I can’t be like that. I already feel like my blogging has been detached and superficial as it is.  If I feel that I am losing my personal touch now, what more if I go down that route? This time around, I want to take my blog to a different direction.  I will still blog about the things that interest me and about life in general but I plan on doing it because I want to — for me, not for anyone else.  If I get readers along the way, thank you very much.  If not, at least I would be happy that I expressed myself in the way that I feel that I should.

I decided to move my old(er) entries to my previous blog so I can start fresh here in my own domain.  I don’t know what kind of blog I’ll have but I hope it was worth the reset.