Clare Henney: The Search

12:00 PM | | Posted by Clare Henney

It’s both a confusing and a eureka moment at the same time. So many things are on the brink of change.  At work, my boss is retiring so I will, along with my superior, be moving up the corporate ladder.  In the middle of all this pending change, I have also been offered another job.  It’s still based in the same area, but there’s that promise of something new since it’s a different company and will have a different style from what I’m used to.  I’ve also thought of working abroad, to go and search for other opportunities there, particularly in Singapore. As I’ve mentioned in previous entries, I’ve also been diagnosed with hyperthyroidism — I’ve had thyroid problems in the past and I’ve gotten better but now it’s back again.  It’s not life-threatening but it is a change because I need to have better eating habits and be more disciplined health-wise. I feel like I’m at the crossroads of my life and I need to make the right decisions at this age.  My health has made me even more determined to live my life to the full, to make decisions based on what will make me happy and what would make God happy and not what people expect from me or what people think should be the best for me.

I feel like career-wise, I need to make a choice. Make the transition when my boss retires by staying at my current workplace and get my raise but slowly shift to early retirement so I can go after the things that I want…one of those things is to be a writer.  To write my novel and film scripts.  Maybe even become a successful blogger.  I guess that’s why I tried out for the Sony Style hosting thing — I want to explore the things I’ve wanted to do but never did.  Ditto with the SM model search.

While the other job is interesting pay-wise and work opportunities-wise, it is a career path that is not for me.  I want to do something that makes me happy for a change and I really, truly want to go on my search for that.  Life is too short to waste it on things the way I have all these years.  Just because I can do the job doesn’t mean it’s what makes me happy.  I’d like to find the path which will be both for me, to have happiness AND job success at the same time. I REALLY NEED THAT RIGHT NOW. Wish me luck.