Clare Henney: Ikot-Ikot
This song has been on repeat in my head for weeks now. It has been since I first heard it. I really like this song titled Ikot-Ikot by Sarah Geronimo. It talks about an emotion that I’ve felt at certain points in my life. I know the song talks about a romantic relationship but for me the lyrics could also mean any type of relationship or situation that we value to the point that we allow ourselves to go through it over and over again even if we know it hurts us in one way or another.
Sometimes I wonder if masochism is a natural trait of a lot of people. We allow ourselves to suffer and choose situations and people that often hurt us even when there are better alternatives out there. We tend to think that our hearts are hardwired to caring about people and things that disappoint us so we just let the cycle go on over and over again. Sometimes we realize that we need to let go but we don’t because of a comfort zone thing…or maybe because we believe that we care about that person or situation and that letting go would mean giving up on a potentially good thing.
I’ve been learning a lot about letting go of people and situations that have been going on “Ikot-Ikot” mode in my life. It’s not easy and a lot of people can’t accept it but I’m not getting any younger. Now is not the time to walk on eggshells and live according to other people’s expectations. Life is too short for that. If I’m going to live my life, I’d like to live it on my own terms and do what’s best for me for a change. It’s time to let go of people who cannot give me the same level of commitment I give to people I care about. It’s time to reassess the place in life that I’m in and see where I want to go from there. Maybe if I break the cycle, things will get better. Enough of going around in circles. I’m too dizzy from the spinning anyway.
Heto na naman tayo
Parang kelan lang ang huli
Gaano man kalayo
Tayo’y pinagtatagpong muli
Ilang ulit nagkasakitan
Ngunit paulit na gumagaling
Ilang ulit balak na iwan
Ngunit patuloy na bumabalik
Kay rami nang sakit
Na nilimot napabayaan
‘Di maiwasang isipin
Na tayo’y para bang tumatakbo
Sa walang hanggan na kalye, tumatakbo
Ang pag-ibig na tila ba ‘sang biyaheng
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
Heto na naman tayo
Damdamin natin ay bumubugso
Tayo ay muling napaso
Pintig ng puso ay lumulusong
Bakit pa ba, hinahayaan
Minsan inisip lumayo na lang
Ngunit hindi kita maiiwan
Mahal pa rin kita ngayon pa man
Kay rami nang sakit
Na nilimot napabayaan
‘Di maiwasang isipin
Na tayo’y para bang tumatakbo
(Oh-woah…)
Sa walang hanggan na kalye
Tumatakbo (tumatakbo)
Ang pag-ibig na tila ba ‘sang biyaheng
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
(Paikot-ikot-ikot lang)
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
(Ikot-ikot-ikot lang)
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
Araw-araw, dulo’t-dulo
May unos na dumaratal
Ano nga bang puno’t dulo
Bakit nagtatagal
Kay rami nang sakit
Na nilimot napabayaan
‘Di maiwasang isipin
Na tayo’y para bang tumatakbo
Sa walang hanggan na kalye
Tumatakbo (Woah…)
Ang pag-ibig na tila ba ‘sang biyaheng
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot
(Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot)
(Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot lang
Ikot-ikot lang, ikot-ikot-ikot)